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Monday, March 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 12:36:21 GMT

guys i got fed up of...this current blog...xanga jus super irritated me...so i've given in and gone to blogspot...

dimpleboffinjoey.blogspot.com

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 17:00:34 GMT

ermm...

Monday, February 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 13:51:12 GMT

Friday, February 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 13:23:13 GMT

alright by request i've decided to continue on my days as a violent kid

ok so my sis asked me "what about the time i beat some fella up" okay sigh i din beat him up okay i just shook him a little...it was when i was 12(it seems to be an eventful year) and in the Bukit Damansara school. so i had these group of friends la we hung out and all, just so happens this boy was really annoying but usually we couldn't care less bout him la....

just so happens one day he decided to grab a pair of scissors and snip my friends frinch right off. and my friend was quiet upset and the guy had been annoying us the whole day so by then i was already irritated and he had to do a silly thing like that. so i grabbed him by the colar,pinned him against the wall and scolded him. alright there you go...hahaha turns out later we discovered he's the son of the lady who started the BODYSHOP franchise in Malaysia.

he's a nice guy now met him once or twice a few years ago.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 12:39:25 GMT

remembering

i was just reading someone's blog bout missing people and remembering times. i just remembered this one time when i was about 12. i was in a school called SMK Bukit Damansara.

i really liked my friends there. their all overseas now. my most memorable time was when my entire year group signed up for this "KEM SAINS 1998". so anyway we went there and we had to sleep in these huts with one light hanging from the ceiling in the jungle la next to the sungai(river) la basically.

so we were all going to this meeting where we all get into groups, they give us a compas, tell us how to use it and send us packing off into the jungle. first team to make it back wins.

on my way back to my hut to get my things, i see 2 of my friends trying to open the wooden door of the hut which appeared to be stuck la can not open.

So i said " let me try"...i tug and tug at the door, i even took both ends of the door and pulled. next thing you know i've broken the door right of it's hinges!..needless to say it was quite a shy moment, the camp people had to come and re-connect the door....:P

there a bit of history...

another story of violence by joelle low

i was in form one...and i was in a co-ed school...back then i must say i wasn't very smart a bit loose in the head ( i'm okay now so nobody say anything!!)...so anyway the guys and the girls used to play this game called...."MERCY"....it's this game to see which person yells mercy first...

so it's goes like this two people ( guy and guy or girl and girl or guy and girl) hold each others hand and sqeeze and twist and basically hurt the other person's hand until one person wants to be released of the grasp...just so happens one day i happen to play it with this dude from my class, other people also la playing with each other on that day...

so it started out normal...since everyone in the form knew the game no big deal la...so here comes the shock...i ended up twisting this guys arm...so that it hurt for the next two days...of course my friends and all exaggerated that i caused him a sprain...no it just got twisted...

there's more but aiya...i'm so mild now

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 07:43:33 GMT

is this cool or what??i got this off loisgreenfield.com....these are her photographs fun right? sigh if only i could move like that...i mean look at the guy on the left wah just the thing to brighten up my day, and the picture below their arms and legs and everything is just so so nice...waaah..this is so great, actually i think there's only one girl in the photo below the other long haired on is a guy

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 13:19:20 GMT

ok well the reason i haven't been updating is cos i just don't feel like it. sometimes there's just too much going on and the last thing you wanna do is update an online blog.

too much stress sometimes so sometimes there's literally nothing to update my blog on, i don't really do much. anyway college is the same as usual. everyday it's the same as usual a battle with the self, trying to overcome weaknesses (but wondering if i'm actually just dillusional about "trying").

feeling better does not mean you are better. being uplifted does not mean the battle is won it just means to me that you've been given a little more to face another day of being annoyed by a certain person i shouldn't be annoyed with. or a little more until you wear out again. and besides feelings trick you, it really takes practice to come to God even when your feeling perfectly fine. i'm so used to making myself feel better i sometimes don't allow God to work. it the end i never win the battle because i'm always solving stuff on my own with my logic.

being a leader is both a great privilege and a heavy responsibility. sometimes i reflect back and the days of the week are all mushed together into one huge blob of nothingness. empty days, days that seems to be over in 1 hour....or that doesn't get over fast enough. when your a leader sometimes you feel you don't get to be living an empty week what is there then to pour out to CG members? there are so many precautions and seriously being a leader can get painstakingly difficult, it can pull you down unless of course your receiving strength from God, then it's a joy to serve Him of course.

ah but there is the true dillema how do you know or rather how do you identify the moment that you begin relying on God's strength? is it even a moment or is a realization that you come to after much practise of spending time with him. maybe it's the latter, makes better sense doesn't it?mostly i don't wanna deal with it, don't wanna open a can of worms in my mind. then i'll never stop thinking never.

when is it time to deal with something? and when is it time to continue in faith and try to start a new? can you start anew without first dealing with the "something"? what are the areas of which our Christian life works in? where is the program or the step-by-step, day by day routine that gets you out of the muck that you got yourself in. people say rely on God, there are some places in which people have gotten their minds and entire beings stuck in that it takes a more detailed account of "how to rely on God" then just telling the person "rely on God"? what about the stuff lodged deep within us that by our willing takes on a life of its own? that takes no heed the time spent with God because in that sense we need more than a simple quiet time, we need to reach out desperately cry out for the strongholds in our life to be torn from us.

ah but are we capable of truly crying out desperately when we are numb to the love of God due to all the "stuff",(that of course we allowed to happen) when we are numb to His awesome sacrifice how then? there was a time when i decided put everything behind me and move forward and never think of the things that haunt you.(many times, each time getting harder) everything goes on fine yet you get drawn back in because you never dealt with it. so we are to deal with it first? am i right readers?

but in my experience dealing with strongholds is never easy it sometimes takes all of you, your total commitment in seeing it throught. your dedication towards submitting to God as only He can break the stronghold. But how do you do all of the above without forsaking all other priorities? concentrate on dealing with the "something" and you find your college work never gets done, that you have no mood for anything because you spent all your strength literally fighting sometimes to submit to God. and each time only gets worse because as someone wise once said "the longer you carry a problem the heavier it gets" and there you are stuck and zombified. trying anyway because that's all you can do, yet you know deep within there is more you can do...parting away from something that has become habit the flesh part of you not really wanting to let go, the spirit part of you losing the battle, it makes you want to not try...and so you don't try as hard as you did the first time.i better stop before i write an essay

ok there an entry to last a long time.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 12:30:07 GMT

leaders' retreat. ok so it was sometime ago. but it was refreshing and i got to know some great leaders, and just reconfirm stuff. sessions were good, challenging.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 10:12:21 GMT

today i was watching american idol with my parents and my aunty.

this is the conversationg between my dad and me

dad: its very hard to sing without and instrument.

me: well ppl can do it.

dad: but aren't you supposed to follow a certain key

me: you don't have to sing in the same key as the original song. anyway the good ones who audition know how to sing in tune.

dad: well it's too late for me (meaning its too late to be a singing star)

at this point my mother and i start laughing....and my dad bursts into a song, some frank sinatra song la.

for those of you who don't know, my dad loves singing,....there was even this one time he surprised us all by coming home one day saying he recorded some karaoke CD at his friend's studio...and that it's out for sale!!

hahahahaha...toodles

Friday, January 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 13:59:58 GMT

alrighty people....photo taking has proved to be hard! hahaha as usual me with my lack of patience...and kiasuness of saving space!!

but nevertheless i intend to prove to myself and challenge myself to take good pictures!!!

anyway...i've had ppls helping out anyway..these couple of days. so not looking forward to college starting in a week's time but this is my 2nd last sem of diploma!!!

oh and i decided that i need to make money so i'm out hunting for a part time job. i tried starbucks and this boutique called elements. next stop BORDERS at the curve..some of you may know but some of you may not know. its these HUGE bookstore and they let you read unlike most bookstores and you can have coffee and nice couches...yes i believe its better than MPH(sounds of shocked ppl in the background)

ok so i wanna get this job cos well it'd be a lesson to me in balancing my time!!

toodles!